Friday 21 May 2010

Waiting (or ohgodohgodohgodohgodohgodohgod)

I just called the VU.  They had their monthly group discussion yesterday and decided that I should go forward to the diagnostic phase.

The waiting list is still 9 months, but they hope to be able to make it shorter.

I'm currently a bit of a wreck - I wasn't expecting the news to affect me this much, in fact I was just expecting it to be a simple call.  Guess I was wrong.  Still a little naïve about how I react to things I guess.  You'd think at 33 I'd be past that.

Time to pick up the courage to call the therapist in Amsterdam...

9 comments:

  1. 9 months? Why on earth does it take so long?? Don't let this delay get to you sweetie! Hang in there, and do whatever you have to do to get to where you want to go!

    Melissa XX

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  2. Hmm, I think I need to clarify...

    The waiting I can live with. Yes the waiting list is too long (they have 5 psychologists and a couple of psychiatrists and 150 new patients each year - hence the wait) but that's really me issue.

    The ohgod and me being a wreck comes from this being quite a solid step that could have some serious implications to my life...

    It's just freaking me out a little... Not something that takes a lot at the best of times.

    Stace

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  3. Still, you're within the system and that's what matters. And they're offering you something, which is more than some of us get on this side of the Engelse Kanaal :)

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  4. Congrats to you getting the call. You are taking this step much sooner that I did.

    Peace,
    Sarah

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  5. It is interesting how we react to the news that we have maybe hoped for.
    For me it was a mix of yes it means I am a step closer to transition while at the same time Oh siht I am a step closer to transition!

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  6. Jenny: Yup in the system, and not fighting it. And as I've said before yes I do feel amazingly lucky to be in the Dutch system as opposed to the British one...

    Sarah: Thanks, I kind of guessed from what the psychologist said that I would be getting the call - but I am not the kind of person to count my chickens. I just want to get the therapist sorted now. I did call, but either I can't read the number that I was given by the gender tema co-ordinator, or it's wrong :)

    Lisa: Yes, that is absolutely what hit after I got the call! I was fine dialing and asking for an uptdate, but as soon as I put the phone down it hit me just what I had done.

    I'm getting past it now (just wish I wasn't interviewing new developers today though - it's tough asking .Net questions when you are struggling to think yourself...

    Stace

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  7. As long as it's not Waiting for ohgodohgod(etc). :-)

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  8. Oops: Congratulations.

    The second step in your journey?

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  9. Carolyn Ann Me too :) And thanks.

    Stace

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