Firstly on November 13th I have to have a bone density test, and for some reason I am terrified. I know that I shouldn't be. Everything that I have read says that it is painless and the only thing that isn't too nice is having to possibly hold your breath for up to 30 seconds.
And yet I am so terribly nervous that it's causing my stomach to tie itself into knots just thinking of it and writing this.
The other, well... The friend that I was going to call this weekend, and wondering how it is going to go. I have called him twice, and both times have not got an answer (nothing changes... 8 years ago you had to count yourself lucky if he answered his phone!)
But... By now I have normally stopped being stressed by seeing people for the first time, and when telling people. When I was in the UK there was almost no nerves left when seeing everyone and I was really pleased by it. And yet... Now it's like being back in December 2011 and having to call everyone again. I'm back to the thinking of how to give the message, being terrified of how they are going to take it. And, strangest of all, I'm going to have to use his name again! After all I can't start with "Hi! It's Stacy" now can I? No, I'm going to have to use his name again, and then go into the whole story (assuming of course that he hasn't already found out - I could be stressed about nothing!)
(Sorry, after along time I'm back to using the blog for stress relief again... Not good, I know... I have therapy next week - I think I'll bring this up...)