I'm sitting here with my eyes welling up, and feeling about ready to just say screw it and go home.
And I don't know why.
The last week or so I've been so lothargic it's scaring me. I can't get myself to do anything - fun or otherwise. There are a few half written posts on my machine at home that I just can't finish, I have a backlog of reading your blogs that I just don't have the energy to do. I've skimmed, but not read.
I have a list of 24 things that have to be done before the end of this week in the office and I keep getting interuptions from people trying to add new things. Which takes me away from the itesms I have which are not only important, but also things that I am looking forward to.
And I'm getting snappy with people, and just plain stressed by things that shouldn't stress me.
I just want to drop my head on the table and sleep... Amoungst other things.
And I don't know why...
If you made it this far then sorry for the outpouring... Hopefully normal service can be resumed soon...
I think I'm going to go to the chemist ands get some of the herbal tablets at lunch to see if that can lift me up a little.
This sounds so familiar, sorry to hear you're going through it too. No need to apologise for it, get some rest!
ReplyDeleteI hope your feeling better soon. I booked a holiday in my dairy and spent the day morning in bed. Some times it all gets just a bit too much. My therapist always told me to spash my face with cold water or forcing myself to laugh. Just thinking of myself sitting at my desk grinnig and laughing like a loon is making me feel better already.
ReplyDeleteRachel xxx
It's your blog, Stace, and we're your friends. Whatever is up, we listen. Sorry to hear about all this stuff on you at once. I hope you can get back to "normal service" soon!
ReplyDeletexoxo
It sounds like you could use a few days away from the salt mines.
ReplyDeleteConstant distractions when you are trying to stay focused on a project, can be very frustrating. I used to plan electrical and process instrument projects for a living, and I'm well acquainted with people wanting to add to the scope of a project, well after I was deep into planning it. Even worse, was when they decided to eliminate certain equipment or parts, long after I had already researched and ordered them! I also had people constantly coming to me, and asking me for help on obtaining materials for their everyday maintenance repairs. We had maintenance clerks for that, but they didn't like to use them, because the clerks had no electrical or instrument background, and they would have to do all of the research work for the clerk first. They didn't want to be bothered with that, even though that was part of their job, so they would come to me and expect me to drop what I was doing, and spend a half a day, running down some repair part for them. It used to drive me crazy.
I hope your herbal remedy helps to brighten your mood. We don't want our dear Stace to be down in the dumps. :-)
Melissa XX
Just go home: f*** it. Ring in sick if you have to and just let work go. Your personal health is more important than the red tape treadmill.
ReplyDeleteIMO :-) Could it be depression? It sure sounds like it, honey. I hope you get through it <<>>
Thanks all. Today is better. Hope it stays that way :)
ReplyDeleteI was going to list some thoughts, but it was too long so I made it into a new post...
Stace
I can relate completely to this in fact I am in a similar place right now to.
ReplyDeleteJust read your comment above though and glad you are feeling better.
x
Oh, Stace, I so relate. I have just been through a long period of which you speak. Exactly the same symptoms.
ReplyDeleteNow, I understand why the lovely Veronica can read and comment on every blog out there. She doesn't deal with GD anymore....lucky girl!
Calie xxx