Oodly enough, for most of the people I spoke to about it, letting people know how I was feeling didn't help.
Having a group of people around you who want to help is great. Getting them to understand that I not just need to get over myself on the otherhand seems to be impossible.
You just need to learn to relax
You just need to push yourself
You just need to be happy with what you have
Oh, I know, I hate being in the middle of a crowd as well
That last one proceeds them running into the middle of a crowd and engaging everyone in it with a beaming smile on their face
I've learnt that there are a couple of people who I can talk to, and how listen in return. The rest will likely get the "I'm fine" reaction from now. I know that they want to help, but the problem is that they are not...
But, I'm on the way up. The last few days have been much better.
Now I'm trying to get back to some projects that I have wanted to do for a while. And I'm trying a new toy to kick start me. Last year I treated myself to a Samgsung tablet. Today I got a keyboard to go with it. Now I can grab a computer out of my bag and type. Whether that is editing code, something that I am still trying to get working, or whether it is writing.
The first public thing is this very post.
Once I have had the keyboard for a few days I'll try to write a review for it.