Is it that long already?

Just a quick post seeing as my laptop battery is about flat...

Today I received a wonderful SMS from my parents. 

'Hi darling daughter. Happy first birthday. Dad and I are so proud of you. Love you lots xxx'

At the weekend I had realized that this week is 1 year.

Yesterday I realized that it was one year from leaving my son behind and heading to hospital.

To be told that I had a fever and the surgeon had to be consulted about whether or not I would be sent home.

To be left alone scared and facing the unknown.

Happy and terrified in a way that I can't explain and that quite a few who knew  me did not appreciate.

However, this week the Dutch health insurance goes into overdrive and I have been working 12 to 14 hours days.

This morning I was so focused on getting the systems in the office working, and getting the errors that we had solved that I didn't stop to think that:

At 7:30, whilst I was driving to the office, it was when someone came in to take blood to double check that I was not too ill to be operated on.

At 8:30, whilst racing between rooms trying to organize a hotfix, I was being taken upstairs to the operating theater

At 09:00, whilst I was delaying a meeting to get the required people to test the hotfix, I was having my hand harpooned as the anesthetist could not find my vein!

At 09:30 whilst taking 5 minutes for a cup of tea to recover from the stress, I was being put under.

At 13:00, whilst in a team meeting, I came to for the third or 4th time (I think) and had no idea what was going on :)

At 16:00, whilst in a planning meeting, I was having nonsensical conversations with Mrs Stace that I have no memory of :o

It's been a tough year, and dilation is still not the high point of my day to put it bluntly, but what a ride and so, so worth it.

I know that some people see it as a birthday, but I really don't. It was a step, big, huge and very important, but a step still, in a long process. But, that SMS from my parents means the world to me :)

Stace