Things have been quite quiet around here recently...

I have been rushed off of my feet with various things, stressed to hell with work (that is at least improving now) but mostly I've just had a case of writers block.  Every time I opened the laptop to do write something I just struggled to get started.

Outside of work I am in a good place at the moment, the stress of life has dwindled somewhat - and that has somewhat reduced my drive to get all of the stress out and into blog posts.  I have written some during the time that will never be published - as Jenny pointed out on her blog recently, writing the post can sometimes be enough.

Why is it that when things are going well you find it difficult to write about things?  I love reading others peoples positive posts – I find it very affirming and something of a pick me up.  So why do I find it so hard to write when things are going well?  Mainly guilt I suppose…  When you know what some people are going though I don’t want to come across as conceited.  Have I ever mentioned that when I have nothing to worry about I spend my time worrying about having nothing to worry about…?

I have also been busy most nights with various things – from visiting friends and family, to training for the city run I did last week (and then recovering from it) to trying to get my new computer set up as I wanted it (it was fine as it was, but being a picky developer I wanted it how I wanted it and was willing to spend the time to get it there). 

Now I have to set up my old one for Mrs Stace, and set hers up as our media server in the living room.

Last week I took part in the city run where I work.  This year I was just outside the top 10% of participants in the 5KM, running it in just over 24 minutes.  At least this year I did not that nauseous that I could not stand for 15 minutes after finishing :)  This time I just needed to stop for a couple of minutes to regain use of my legs…

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On a serious note, I’m sure everyone has seen the video that has been posted around in the last couple of days from Baltimore.  I still find what human beings will do to each other for no reason unbelievable, and how they will come up with excuses to try and justify themselves.  And that other people will just stand around filming it, not for any noble reason – as evidence for example, but because they think it’s funny.  I’m just glad to see that he victim has at least recovered (physically) and hope that she can get over it with time and help.  In this instance it was a transwoman, but this type of violence happens for all sorts of ‘reasons’…  And they are all inexcusable.

When you look at what the world in general can do to people I wish the conflicts that have been so obvious on various blogs would stop – when I started blogging a couple of years ago I found so much solace by finding kindred spirits.  The blog sphere is a different place now to then, and I am not sure that it would help someone just starting out now as much as it helped me.  I find that quite sad.  I’ve never been one to look for conflict, and so have tried to steer clear of this subject, but I find the crossfire very tiring – and that in itself adds to the inability to write…