I've had a hectic year, we bought a new house, sold our old one.
I'm still recovering from my op last year, which has not been helped by moving home. Painting every wall in a house, and starting to clear the garden has not been kind. I have lost a lot of movement in my thumb, and I'm worried that I may have done permanent damage. I have an appointment coming up so they can check then. I'm actually really pleased that I do - if I hadn't then I would have had to request one...
Of course there are always the bits that you wish would go better.
My anxiety has been through the roof for a couple of years now, and shows no sign of abetting. I'm trying to push myself to do more thing to help it, but it seems that isn't having a good effect. I would, or rather should, be going to the doctors to try and get a referral to a psychologist - but the thought of doing that just skyrockets my anxiety even further. Catch 22...
Also, and the reason why I am writing this post, I need to quit Facebook. I'm getting sick and tired of the transphobic posts that I see coming through, from people I thought were friends. It's not even that they don't realise that they are posting transphobic things. They just think that transphobia doesn't exist and that we are just playing the victim.
What is harder is that some of these posts are from supposed life coaches, people who have their own issues due to their sexuality - who in the same post complain about being belittled due to their orientation, complaining that people don't even think that they exist, and in the next sentence call trans women entitled people who just feel that the world owes them sex.
I was so close to answering that, but have decided that getting into a Facebook argument with someone like that isn't worth my time or effort. But I needed to write something. So this post. Sorry.
My only issue is that there are people that I know from blogs in the past who I now only have contact with via Facebook. I don't want to lose that contact, and yet just want rid of Facebook...
I'm doing a short test. Facebook has been hidden on my phone so that I don't see it (I can't uninstall it unfortunately), it's been removed from my startup pages in Chrome so that I don't see it when I open a browser.
I'm not using it for the rest of this week. I'm going to see how I feel at the end and then I'll make a decision about what to do.
But what I am going to (try) to do is get back to posting here. Once a week, or once a fortnight. I am going to try and make some time for myself to spend 30 minutes locked away from the family and get some typing done. Hopefully it will be as cathartic as it used to be.
I hope not to mope, life is pretty good - I am in a pretty great place - physically and mentally, and I want my posts to reflect that.
I also want to split my previous FB time between two things:
- Catch up on blogs that I have missed recently due to no time.
- Catch up on tech blogs to see what I have missed in the tech world whilst watching FB for inanities.
Let's see how well it goes :)
